Writer’s workshop prompt: What was your medicine? Write about a time you remember being ill.
What was my medicine? The better question would be, what wasn’t my medicine. At some point during each visit with a new doctor, the nurse taking my history usually asks me what I do in the medical field. Nothing, I tell her, I’ve just taken a whole lot o’ drugs.
When it comes to medical luck, I have none. Or rather, I have tons, it’s just all bad. If it can happen, it happens to me. Whenever I’m in the office, my OB eyes me warily, looks sideways at my 6 inch thick chart, and says, “Well, normally I wouldn’t worry about it, but since it’s you … I think we should do an ultrasound, some blood work …”
It’s to the point of ridiculousness. Really, it is.
As in, I’m resistant to anesthetic. Telling doctors you’re resistant to anesthetic, anesthesia and pain meds in general is not a fun thing to do. They hear your words and immediately label you “junkie.” Or, if they’re particularly kind, “wimp.” Before my c-section, I tried to explain to the anesthesiologist that pain meds just don’t last on me. Oh, the patronizing look in his eyes as he explained to me that the spinal he was going to administer would be enough to numb me for two and half times the length of the surgery.
Oh, how I wish he’d still been in the OR when the spinal wore off. Yes, you read that correctly. My spinal wore off during my c-section. Once the nurses figured out that yes, my skyrocketing blood pressure meant that I wasn’t faking, that I really was in excruciating pain, they began to administer morphine. Lots of morphine. Which is how I ended up with an ileus. (Google at your own risk.)
I told this story to a physician friend of mine, who looked at me, incredulously, and said, “Nobody gets an ileus after a c-section! You would be my nightmare patient!”
If I could do math, it would be great fun to figure out what number I am in a million. After my recent surgery to fix the abdominal muscles the twins ripped apart while in the womb, I had horrible complications from the general anesthesia. My surgeon told me I was in the 1% of the population to have these complications. Then, I started to accumulate pockets of fluid around the surgical site, which had to be drained no less than four times. My surgeon told me I was in the 2% of the population to have this particular complication.
Seriously, I don’t know how to do the math, but that tells me I should be buying lottery tickets.
Over the years, migraine headaches, a small brain tumor, four shoulder surgeries, and a host of other maladies have led me to exchange one of those 80’s BFF pendants with my pharmacist, Sam.
But my medicine is not limited to what’s on Sam’s shelves. If it’s out there, I’ve tried it. Massage therapy is delicious and effective, therefore insurance won’t cover it. They will, however, cover acupuncture. Blue Cross logic escapes me. As do the mechanics of acupuncture. I only know that the first time I tried it, the acupuncturist had only put in about three needles when my body felt like it had been strung up on a power line. I was burning hot, sweating like crazy, and I almost vomited on his shoes. He stood back, awestruck, and said, “I’ve never seen anyone react to acupuncture like this before. You must have had a major blockage in your energy flow.”
Then there was my experiment with hypnosis. It was very relaxing, and I learned how to self-hypnotize, which has been useful. But the hypnotist shot her credibility all to hell when she tried to get me to try her version of biofeedback, which was “based on quantum physics” and involved a machine that could tell you everything about your body, including where you might have imbalances or cancer. I’m thinking that if this were anything but quackery, it would be at the Mayo Clinic and all over CNN. The best part was when she told me each of us has the equivalent of a unique radio signal, and that once she’s acquired it, she can treat a person from as far away as necessary, by dialing into their unique frequency, using (natch) quantum physics.
She knew I was a lawyer and not a physicist, but I couldn’t resist confronting this obvious quackery. I started asking her questions about how her magic machine worked. It was obvious that her clients don’t often ask questions. She stuttered a few explanations, littered with big, impressive sounding words, and ended with, “but it’s all about quantum physics, so I can’t really explain it since you don’t know quantum physics.”
Forgive me, Lord, but I had to do it. I said, “Oh, I took all kinds of physics in college when I was thinking about going to med school. Loved my quantum physics course. So tell me how this thing works?”
And suddenly, we were out of time.
My health issues have also prompted me to try meditation classes, which I loved, but the practice has been hard to keep up. You can’t see well with your inner eye when your inner ear is being bombarded with “MOMMY! He just hit me!”
And then there’s the physical therapy. Oh, the PT. And the TENS unit. And the look on my dentist’s face when my incessant tooth-grinding cracked my new Kevlar nightguard, and the even more despairing look a few months later when he figured out I’d cracked an actual tooth while wearing my new (stronger) nightguard.
However, the doc at the pain clinic has me figured out. Each time he sees me to administer my trigger point injections, he says, “You have too much stress! This would all be better if you could just get a Type B personality.”
Anybody know where I can pick one of those up?